Monday, September 03, 2012


Brett Capone’s name popped into my head today and I lit up with smiles remembering our times together. How many years has it been? Wonder where he is. Still in Rhode Island? What an accent that man has. An inflection as tough as the waterfronts of New Bedford, Providence and Fall River combined, infused with just enough of his grandparents’ Italian to hold his own in an argument at table. 

Brett was hot. Hazel eyes alternating between mischief and kindness over a thick biker stash. A short lean build that never acquired the paunch that is everyone else’s destiny. I wondered if he’s still got the butch little body that drove the boys wild at that dive on Weybosset Street. I realized as I opened the Mac that I never had any idea of Brett’s age. Probably in his late 40s by now. Didn’t he stay with us more than once at our place in Montreal? Of course he did. How could I forget? As I tell Chris that I am about to google him, he reminds me of the time when Brett was our guest in Montreal and spent an entire morning sipping coffee while meticulously and ritualistically ironing his thickly ribbed wooly socks that comprised the keynote of the costume of that season. Black baseball cap. Dogtags over white wifebeater. Tight denim shorts rolled up to mid thigh, and hellishly heavy black work boots over those tall gray socks. We had never heard of anyone ironing his socks! Brett looked beyond us and blissfully ignored us while we laughed our heads off at the spectacle of the princess revealed at the ironing board obsessively preparing her gown for yet another crazed night out at K.O.X., the Aigle Noir or Le Stud and ending up in just a short white towel at the St. Marc’s with a bottle of Rush in his hand and sitting next to me in the sauna, where we whispered into each other’s ears the hilarious accounts of the fantastic men we had just encountered. I counted on Brett for those moments. We both shared a delight in the telling of the story that far surpassed the actual adventures in which we trespassed, often just to acquire new material and newer more lurid details. We were like little boys embellishing ghost stories by flashlight in the backyard tents of our childhood. Sometimes, in the discharge of our supporting roles in the course of a night’s revelry, we would tag team unsuspecting men. We’d pull a script out of thin air. Brett would do this. I would say that.  We’d pretend to be strangers. We’d work in someone named Sylvain or Serge or Stephan, and we’d always leave them laughing. That is, we’d leave laughing. Hyper-attuned to the sweaty slapstick of men in heat, Brett and I would sometimes break into giggles at inopportune moments. I suspect we derailed many an otherwise erotic passage of choreography just because neither of us could ignore the humor of what men do and say when inflamed with desire.

As you may have suspected by now, a quick search of his name informed me that Brett died several years ago. A memorial post was embellished with great photos and mentioned a partner, a search of whose name led me to the fact that he died not long after Brett.

I wish I did not know this. I wish I had not searched for him. What is the point of knowing someone’s current status when you haven’t felt strongly enough about him to keep in touch? Is there some injury to thinking a man is still alive when he is not? Wouldn’t it be better to assume he was still in Rhode Island? Still bitching about some employer who wouldn’t approve enough time off? Still bubbling over about some amazing guy he encountered just yesterday? Still carefully ironing his socks for the thrilling night to come?

Sunday, September 02, 2012

Kevin Cathcart is All About The Future At Lambda Legal

From the 19th floor of 120 Wall Street, the waterfront view of New York City is spectacular and never taken for granted by the occupant of the corner office, Lambda Legal’s Executive Director Kevin Cathcart.

Lambda Legal is the nation’s oldest and largest civil rights group working for the LGBTQ community. Under Cathcart’s direction, it has become powerful with significant increases in inquiries and impact in 2011.

According to Cathcart who grew up in New Jersey just 35 miles from his office, there are two types of people.

“There are those who say they can’t wait to move to New York City, and those who say they can’t wait to move out of Jersey. I was part of the latter group. I didn’t even dream of becoming a lawyer, no, I grew up in a working class world. I didn’t know what a lawyer was. I came of age at a time when civil rights law was a driving force, in the late 60s early 70s. I began thinking about law in college, because I was interested in politics and because that is when I had come out. Maybe I was in a lucky time slot. Stonewall had just happened. I had nothing to lose by coming out. No job or family. I settled in Boston where I was the Executive Director of GLAD [Gay & Lesbian Advocates & Defenders] for eight years. I got a call from a friend who told me about the Lambda job. I thought ‘I could live in NYC for a couple of years’ That was 20 years ago.”

[Read the rest of my Kevin Cathcart profile at]